You know, I love being able to write. But, tonight, I am not sure what to say exactly. School has me so worn out. Suddenly, I have 5 research papers to write and 3 weeks left in my semester. I sat in an office today and attempted to make my schedule for next semester, but my advisor escaped out her window before I could get it signed.
It was, alas, a Friday.
But seeing this photo reminded me of something. It was taken last weekend while celebrating my birthday at IHOP. What are you eating spiritually? Are you receiving it?
As my birthday day waned on, I felt God speak to my spirit. This year, my 22nd, will be a year of so many changes. But I serve a God who is faithful, able, and willing to guide my steps far better than I ever could. I AM the delight of His heart. My identity and worth is secure in the cross. Regardless of what I could ever see in the mirror or in my bank account (Help! Student loans! Jesus come back before I have to pay...), God reigns. His banner over my life and yours is LOVE. He speaks tenderly to you regardless of what you've done or where you've been.
A few weeks back, I asked God to show me the lies I've been believing during my walk with Him. Suddenly, it hit me. I told God, "You know, it'd be easier if you just hit me already." My view of His love was so far from what His tender heart has towards me. I turned His mercy into some kind of conditional competition where if I was worthy then maybe He'd love me. But nothing you or I could ever do would make us worthy of God's love. That's what Jesus' sacrifice is all about. He paid the price that we never could. He made us worthy.
So, my lesson for today when I feel so stressed and annoyed and so many other emotions,
My God has made me worthy.
